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gloomy tuesday

If you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

what happens if you forget the reason why you held on to that little hope, that little hope that could either destroy your life or make it all better?
what happens if you just wanna let go?

i am just so tired.
and i am sick of everyone around me.

everyday i ask myself, "what am i doing this for?"
and everyday i come up with the same answer.

i don't know

i really don't know.

this hollowness just keep burning and burning.
and it can't be put out.

i am being eaten alive.

i know there are ppl who will be there for me when i need them to
but will it always hold true?

don't make me any promises when you have no intention of keeping them.
because you are making me hold onto that little dash of hope
and it is just killing me inside, hard and swift.

i just wanna cry.

a bad day

today is a really bad day
was in a total foul mood and all i wanted to say today was, "FUCK."

Hais.
idk why but i just felt so down down down down down today
and i skipped CLL remedial too.

reached home @ 5pm and i thought to myself, "i bet the rest are still waiting for remedial to start."

no team trg today also cos there's the make-up econs lecture
the main reason as to why CLL remedial started so late.

i hate it when i stayed for lessons till late which are just a total waste of my time.

i will not be complaining if i live in the east
but the thing is that going home @ 5.30pm and going home @ 6.30pm are 2 total different things if you live in the north.

I AM DAMN TIRED.

and i wanna just fall asleep, never to wake up.

"The Climb"

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

I need to keep the faith burning in my body
but i just couldn't find my motivation to do it

D:

sunday morning blues

LOVED!

人之古，谁不自恋？
LOL.

credits to kang-ge for this beautiful photo
NOT THAT I AM TRYING TO SAY THAT I AM PRETTY (HEEHEE!)
but it's just that i love love love the feel of this photo
like i am on the top of the world and i don't give two hoots to what is gonna happen next

i guess this is supposed to be the kind of feeling that teenagers are supposed to feel.
but this feeling just fade away when i reach home and just hit my bed ytd.
LOL.
slept for 16 hrs.
from 5pm to 8pm, then woke up to eat dinner, then went back to sleep at 8.30pm

cos i felt really tired this whole week,
woke up like 5 plus in the morn everyday and plus the amt of energy i had drained each day after recovering from my fever.
had orientation SM on mon and tues
grp PE on tues
then orientation perf on wed
mass PE on thurs
trg til 9pm on fri

what awesome life i am leading, yeah?

cant wait for the long weekend
cos it will mean sleeping til 10am everyday (:

team trg is starting on mon
WHICH MEAN NO NEED TO GO REMEDIAL YES!
pls, the remedial is a waste of my time
i would rather go trg anytime

(:
LOL

i realise that time flies when you are really busy
but it just refused budge when you just wish for it to fly.

LIFE IS LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU WILL GET.

hais.
so many things to do, so little time.

valentine's day is coming, all the more to lament and sulk about my life
i wanna watch VALENTINE'S DAY

D:

ergh. i have no idea what i am blogging about now.
RAH!

random...

2 is better than 1 is LOVED.

hais i need to get this out before i go crazy thinking about it day and night.
D:

i hate the feeling of how you always managed to drive me crazy everytime i see you
i hate the feeling of how much i want to see you again altho we just parted
i hate the feeling of how much your words affect me

really, i hate it but i just can't get enough of it
what an irony.

D:

HAIS TTM.

coastal scents make-up

i was so bored until i gave up and went and browsed http://www.coastalscents.com/

I WANNA GET THEIR 88 WARM PALETTE
COS IT IS EFFING CHEAP

in stock at US$25 = S$35

88 wearable colours and it is damn freaking cheap!

okay, not cheap but its affordable for 88 colours.
imagine what kind of looks you can conjure up with 88 colours.

sry, i cant help it but to keep emphasize on the "88 colours" part LOL

sherlynn used it on her models and she faved it.
and i trust my dear cuz judgement

there is the 88 Piece Makeup Palette
but the colours are matte and highly pigmented

obviously its cheaper lah w/o all the shimmer dust.
i think after conversion it will cost abt S$28
which is cheaper than MAC and Bobbi Brown and Chanel makeup

definitely, the quality will not be as good but heck, it is good quality product as far as i am concern
((:

LOVES MAN.

there is also the concealer palette that looks great
from all the reviews i think it is also another great product
good coverage altho it is in cream form, 10 different shades.

i love my skin food concealer but damnations it comes in only one shade
and it is liquid (which means i can only wear a tiny bit for coverage in case it gets too oily)

hais.

so many makeup so little money rah!
maybe i shld like get darling cuz to order it so i can play with it
LOL

but i think she will stick to Bobbi Brown concealer palette
HAHA

anyw, i think i shld stop gushing abt make up.
HAIS.

buhbye for now.

sick and recovered

the incentives of being sick:
1. no need to go school.
2. grow a little taller.
3. lose weight.

:D
measured myself and i am currently 165.3 cm tall ((:
and 47kg.

YES.
i was like damn happy until my doc was like 'no worries, you will sure put on weight aft a week or 2 one."

cau, burst my bubbles can.

-.-

okay lah. tmr is orientation and i hate waking up early for it like wts seriously.
6.30am in full uni and tie like wts luh!

hais.
btr go do my work.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE

心碎雨

黄靖伦-心碎雨

作词:伍家辉
作曲:伍家辉

开始是像被刀划过
就算痛也不算甚麽
梦幻的你不属於我

痴呆眼神有些落魄
人潮中期待些甚麽
车厢外霓虹在迷惑

I don't know i can't feel
I‘m so lonely 你听见了吗

每当一再而再的想起
那甜蜜的小插曲
脑袋就会不自禁抗拒
又思念你的情绪
可是寂寞有时太清晰
心碎雨将我的心一点一点点散去

每当耳际一再的响起
你离开后的回音
视线就会不经意逃避
笑容背后的同情
还剩这个空荡的躯体
心碎雨将我的心一点一点点变成雨滴